22. A phenomenal Friday night.

The immediate attraction.  The flow of conversation.  The seductive looks.  The flirting.  The cigarette sharing.  The 6 hour build-up.  The energy in the cab home.  The touching.  The kissing.  How weightless you made me feel.  How you grabbed me passionately.  How you picked me up.  How you spoke to me.  How you felt.  What you…

You blew it.

Our date was fun but I came home feeling ambivalent towards you.  I was reluctant to accept a second date, but I thought there could have been some attraction there.  I hoped you wouldn’t spoil it, mainly because you had life experiences , motivation and interesting things to talk about – you ticked a lot…

An education. Or: once you see it, you can’t un-see it.

Recently, I’ve had time to read and my genre du jour is feminism in the modern day.  I wanted to challenge my mindset that feminism is about chopping up bras, hating men and protesting over unequal pay (although I fully support this cause, obviously).  As well as talking with friends and females in my family, my…

Please don’t spoil this.

You’re not conventionally attractive.  You’re not my usual type.  But you were keen to meet and drove a distance to meet me. For the most part you were very charming – and flirty.  Conversation was easy and I instinctively felt comfortable with, and trusted, you.  I couldn’t work out if I fancied you.  I liked…

2 very different stories…

Version 1: You match with a guy from Bumble.  You’re chatting for a few days.  You’re unsure on whether to go on the date. Date: he’s a nice guy, but you don’t feel a spark.  He tries to ask questions about you, but he mainly talks about himself.  He has limited ‘chat’ and no giggles….

Patterns

Some girls are adept at bagging the guy.  I’ve never found it particularly easy. There’s a guy I like.  And I think he likes me too…  (Doesn’t this sound familiar..?)   Experience thus far has taught me that guys in their 20’s do not have their shit together.  So when Mr R came along (at…

A sexual history by numbers

1. We were together for 7 years.  Pretty wonderful, really. 2.  This was a little weird.  A different man’s body.  You were so fucking awkward afterwards. 3 and 4.  A fun night all around… 5.  The first one-night stand.  Nothing was okay about this. 6.  Gorgeous, younger.  A complete laugh.  We would continue hooking up…

The agony to the ecstasy.

  I was dreading being single. The effort of having to actually organise things for the weekend, rather than assuming I’d have something to do. The sheer panic of not knowing when my next shag would be. The agony of analysing every. single. message he sends. The realisation that I might be alone forever. But…